• I’ve lost my health insurance and so I’ve had to cut back on my meds to try and stretch them although I don’t see the point. They’ll run out soon enough and then I will go nuts. I can only hope they last until […]

  • Noah Body commented on the post, the end 5 days, 13 hours ago

    Someday I will simply vanish

  • We are beyond talking. She has a boyfriend. She tells him she loves him, She tells me it is over with him but I hear her say “I love you”. I cannot survive this. Seriously.

  • Hello darkness my old friend
    We are joined once again

    I screwed everything all up
    I know I did it in closeup

    She was giving me a chance
    Now I see it’s gone at a glance

    She whispers she loves him
    Tears […]

  • I fucked up big time. My wife was giving me a chance. A real chance. I didn’t realize it and made a post on Facebook that I should have made here. It was all about how uncomfortable I feel in our home in NC […]

  • And I am so glad to see you are still around. Don’t worry. I don’t know how to navigate this site either.

  • It is a relatively good day so far but then the day has just started so we’ll see where it goes from here. So far depression is very mild, there are no voices in my head and there are no tears. I am doing good so […]

  • I’m doing all right today, all things considered. No tears. Only a mild depression. No insane thoughts. A bit jittery but that’s a daily thing. Also no headache for the first time in days. I didn’t sleep well […]

  • It’s been 5 days since I’ve seen her. Yesterday was one of those don’t answer the phone days so I think she was with her boyfriend. It is killing me.

    Tonight we have a concert to go to. Prokol Harum. She asked […]

  • Stress, stress and more stress.

    Someone broke into my son’s home while he was at work. Nothing was taken but they left the front door wide open. Kate, our dog who stays there with him, got out and ran away. We […]

  • “Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.”

    Stephen King

  • There exists a world out there
    A world where gloom does not dare

    A world of noise on joy
    Where a girl meets boy

    And they join in union
    In everlasting communion

    To live lives of joy and love
    Sent down […]

  • It’s been a rough few days. Depression is kicking my ass. Yesterday I couldn’t even drag myself out of bed until 3:30 in the afternoon. Today I’ve been up since 2 AM. My daughter says I’ve been weeping in my […]

  • It’s not a bad day. Depression is light but still there. Despair is almost gone. But I am still lonely. Seems that’s how I live my life – lonely. No one wants anything to do with me. Even my sole real life friend […]

  • Another day, another dollar. Or 75 cents counting inflation.Not a good day. Not at all. Depression is deep and strong. It was all I could do to get outta bed and type this. Tears flow freely. Suicidal thoughts […]

  • Well I guess this year’s flu shot didn’t do the trick because I got one and I’ve been down for a week with the flu. Poor little Jeremiah has it too. He has it much worse than I did. Funny story. His mom had him […]

  • It’s been a long week. I’ve had a wicked cold all week and have spent most of it in bed. Needless to say I haven’t been to the gym in a week. Poor little Jeremiah got it too. He was tossing his cookies and […]

  • I am alone all day at my daughter’s. She works daywork today so I had to stay over last night to get the kids off to school. My wife is on her way to Florida so she has the car and my son has our truck so I have […]

  • I took my wife on a date tongiht. Just dinner but still it was nice. Imagine that! She actually agreed to a date with me!

    At first she started playing with her phone and I thoght “Here we go again. Take her […]

  • It’s been a crazy couple of days. First my wife says she loves me then she says she doesn’t. Naturally my hopes go up and down with her statements. My mood seems to follow them also. Either elated or depressed. […]

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