I miss having conversations with the opposite sex. Just conversations about everything and nothing. Conversations to get to know someone.
When I ask my husband about himself…he is suspicious and annoyed. And he doesn’t want to know about me. I get it…he doesn’t know who he is…what he likes and what he doesn’t. He’s always looked to others to tell him.
I’m almost ready to leave. I’ve stayed for him. I wanted him to work through his issues and find a way to love himself…and then me. I had hoped 6 yrs was enough time for him to do so. It hasn’t been.
I feel guilty for feeling like I want to wash my hands clean. If do leave…I don’t ever want to see him again. I just want to be done…free from the negativity.
I’m thankful for this sounding board. I needed to express this and don’t have anyone I can share it with.