Today is his birthday. I want to wish him well. I want to spend it with him. I want to tell him I love him. I won’t.
I learned I am not the only person he is lashing out at. He has really lost his way. He lashed out at a family member two nights ago, and her children. Her daughter is five. His yelling and rage upset the little girl. He had no sympathy for this child he had once cherished. He yelled at her to stop crying and it caused her to vomit. This is not typical of the man I married.
Yet, I think about him today. I love him so much and I don’t want him to be lonely on his birthday. I don’t want him to feel I don’t care. I just don’t know how to communicate with him in this state of mind he is in. It makes me so sad.
So this is where I will wish my husband a wonderful 44th birthday. I hope your day turns out to be a great one. I wish for you peace and comfort. May you reflect on your years and remember only the joy and wonderful moments…tomorrow you can go back to living in the pain; if you choose. Today…celebrate your life and the positive influences you have brought into the world. Celebrate you…I love you.